No, this is Not a Quiz, but you do get to give me your opinion, or advice, or both, as you see fit should you choose to do so.
Okay, so I’m sitting here in the almost dark of the Office… yes, it’s Sunday Evening and I came in to work! (I needed to do a system back up and restore, and it needs to be done during off-hours. Hmmm… a weekday after 11 pm, OR Friday night after 5 pm, OR when it’s convenient on the weekend and parking is free… which makes more sense to you??) But I digress!
Okay, so I’m sitting here in the almost dark of the Office… I’ve got a half hour to kill while I wait for the system back up to complete… and I let my mind wander.
I’m feeling like I’m at an emotional crossroads again, trying to decide what to do about My Life. There’s a few issues going on, and a few decisions to make, and I’m NOT going to give you ALL the details because some of the people who might be affected by or be an influence on those decisions might read this journal, or might have friends who read this journal, and I’m kind of embarrassed about having these thoughts in the first place.
Okay, so you dragged it out of me: I have the hots for a certain young lady and I don’t know what to do about it, mainly because I’ve not met her, or if I have met her it was really only in passing at some major social event and I don’t think she would remember me. Furthermore, we have a few mutual friends, but she’s better friends with them than I am with them. Mostly they seem more like mere acquaintances with me. (That may be a different issue entirely.) Which means I don’t even feel comfortable telling them “Hey, I have the hots for so-and-so, can you do anything to fix us up?”
And then there’s the problem with the age difference. Hell, at MY age EVERY thing is a problem with an age difference it seems! No, I’m not REALLY OLD, it’s just that my spiritual age doesn’t match my chronological age… I’m too young to be as old as I am!
And THAT’s why I feel like I’m either a lurker or a wannabe.
But that doesn’t necessarily create the crossroads, you say? Right! There are other things going on in My Life at the moment, things that seem to be pulling me in a slightly different direction and with a slightly different group of people than what I was travelling in before.
At the moment, I didn’t think the two groups were compatible. But as I do more investigation, I’m discovering that I could be wrong on that count. I mean, a search of the Gothic Personals turned up some ads for people who list their religion as “Jewish.” And I just discovered
WHO KNEW? Maybe there’s hope for me yet?
