I’m in a very strange mood right at the moment, and it is making me feel quite uncomfortable…
I don’t know what it is, or why I’m feeling like this just now. I was sitting at my desk, being relatively productive, updating a complex Support Document for the system I maintain, and I suddenly started to have this weird feeling. It’s not like depression, it’s not like boredom, it’s not like sickness, it’s not like dissatisfaction, it’s not like anything like that. It’s just like “blah,” I guess.
I thought it may have been because I was hungry… but I didn’t really feel all that hungry even though it was into my lunch time. Not that I have an Official Lunch Time. I generally just go grab something to eat when I feel like it’s time to eat. That usually ends up being between 12:30 p.m. and 1:30 p.m.
Of course it doesn’t help that the Food Court in this complex is mostly crap. There’s a crappy Chinese place that has several kinds of overly greasy and bland offerings. There’s a burger joint that gave me food poisoning the one time I ate there and have never been back to. There’s a sleazy, greasy pizza slicery, but if I feel like treating myself to pizza I go across the road to the other slightly less sleazy, greasy pizza slicery. There’s a deli-type outlet that confuses me so I don’t go there. (Don’t ask me why it confuses me… I haven’t really figured that part out… I just don’t like it.) And there’s a sandwich place where I usually get their pasta and salad entree. But today they’re serving macaroni and cheese, and I have a thing about buying macaroni and cheese in a restaurant!
So I went across the road to the wraps place, and got a falafel wrap. Lots of veggies, but the falafel tends to be a bit on the dry side. I was going to get them to put some oil-and-vinegar dressing on it, but after watching her slather the tahini sauce all over the falafel balls, I figured it would be moist enough. I was wrong!
But at least it was fairly healthy. I’m trying to get back on my diet plan, at least for a little while again, because my weight has been trending up lately. Not much, only a few pounds, but enough to make me realize it’s going in the wrong direction… Best to snip that in the bud before it gets out of hand!
It could be that my mood is caused by the weather. We have another fricking SMOG ADVISORY and HEAT ADVISORY in effect today. That means I couldn’t ride my bike to work. Between the weather– too hot, too thick, or too wet– and my schedule, I think I’ve ridden my bike once since my Biking Holiday with Linda more than a month ago!
I’m also winding down my efforts on the deck, and taking a break between DEstruction and CONstruction. (Which reminds me, I have to call the post diggers back today.) Maybe my mood is a result of the adjustment to a lesser degree of activity?
Of course, my mood could also be a residual from the weekend. I went home to visit my folks, and to take them some new wine labels. Conversation at lunch got steered around to my pathetic success with women, [absinthea knows about that from the “rachel incident” at C8!] or more correctly my success with pathetic women.
FUCK! I could — and probably will — write BOOKS about my pathetic success with women! But I don’t think that is what is causing my current mood.
No, I really don’t know what it is, or why I’m feeling like this just now. But I’m sure it won’t last. It usually never does.
